All The Feels

The last few weeks have been *a journey*. I’ve been planning ahead (a crazy concept given the pandemic is not over) and doing a lot behind-the-scenes (new merch! new workshops! new SBR interviews!). It’s all very exciting but I’ve also been feeling like I’m stuck in a brick of butter. Nothing is moving fast enough. Part of that feeling is tied to logistics not making for a sexy Instagram post and I admit that working quietly for the last few months makes me feel a touch lonely and unseen, but a bigger part of that butter feeling is tied to the conversations with the literary community I’ve been having (lots and lots of them) given the wild decisions Simon & Schuster is making, who happens to be the publisher of my first book. Spoiler alert: I don’t know how to address the hot mess that is Simon & Schuster yet, but as a first time author I’m told, I don’t have a lot of pull. Trust me, I’m working on it (feverishly, as a matter of fact) and I’m going to keep you posted. All of this is happening during a hopeful time (the Derek Chauvin trial) and an insanely heartbreaking time (the murder of Daunte Wright, Adam Toledo, Dominique Lucious, and Ma’Khia Bryant, to name a few angels). These complicated and hard feelings about work and worth and the value America places on Black lives crescendoed yesterday when the Supermoon in Scorpio hit. The message from my tarot cards and from my Moon Crew was clear: we want and need a new age. But we’re only just beginning and before it gets better, it might get a whole lot more messy and heartbreaking. The Scorpio Supermoon invites us to recognize what a rebirth feels like (any mother will tell you that a birth hurts like hell and is often anything but smooth). As Ninah Davis put it in Moon Crew yesterday: “Rebirth yourself first. After you do that, tell the whole world how you did it. Because you cannot fight for freedom without being free yourself first.” If any of you have been feeling overwhelmed or discouraged (raises hand), I am here to tell you that you are not alone and that together we will not give up. Quite the opposite, together we will be more steady, and louder, and more loving, and harder to ignore.

In that spirit, I want to bring us together for the promised community gathering. Drop a comment and let me know if you prefer a Sunday or a Tuesday meeting at 12pm EST (noon, lunch time, pre-siesta time, not midnight) and I’ll set us up for May. Until then, I send you lots love.